Wednesday, September 16, 2009

September 2nd

On our 3rd anniversary I found out I had a missed miscarriage. Bilated Ovum was what I had.
I guess God was saying something's not right with this baby & I need to take him back.
I cried twice.
Am depressed everyday. Just because of my selfish ways of wanting a baby so bad.
My pregnancy test still shows up positive. I'm still bleeding from my medicine.
It's been 2 weeks today.
I don't want a D&C. I'll wait another 2 weeks, then I may have to have one.
I don't want to go under.
Did I mention I'm suffering from depression. I'm sad about my life. I want a bunch of kids to love me and call me mommy.
I want playmates at home for my little one.
I still have faith in the Lord & know he will bless us plentifully

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